HELLO 2015!

Ya so i got lazy again and stopped writing here. Nevertheless, I shall continue the tradition of writing my yearly entry!

2015 new goals and achievements!

Let's start with some reflections on 2014

- I got to run my own outlet in March 2014
Finally a chance to be my own boss and call the shots!It is both challenging and interesting but I think I devote too much commitment and always find myself stressed up with work. Too much emotion put into this, but I realised I have become stronger mentally and physically. I am more decisive and no longer sits on the fence.

- I won Second for the Throw less Competition!
Hard work paid off even though I wanted to get 1st, shall give myself credit and a pat on the shoulder since they are 22 entries submitted and I was among the top 5 =D

- I completed 2 marathons!
Did not expect myself to climbed up 62 stories and I feel so proud of myself. I shall not count the shape run as completing a marathon since I basically walked more than ran.

- I got a new table, new macbook, new bed and a mini-made over of my room!

- I travelled more than 3 times in 2014
This would be my only goals that I really achieved. Went to Batam, Bandung twice, Hangzhou, Shanghai and Hong Kong

- My complexion is getting better
After I spent a great deal on my face, dear face please recover and give me back my perfect complexion!

- Went to dine in the dark Nox for the first time, fine-dining and ended 2014 with fine-dining at the French restaurant with Joel.

Certainly, there are also bad memories. Shall not mention them and hope there is a closure soon. I would want to forget the unhappiness.

OK so now,
2015

(1) TO get my driving license! (So i can drive myself or my loved ones around =D)
(2) To read more books (12 is still the target)
(3) TO become fitter (Oh yes, I signed up for a package with countours express. I hope I can maintain that energy to gym)
(4) To learn a new skill (I should refresh my korean, it helps by watching more korean dramas)
(5) TO be out of Singapore for more than 3 times!
(6) TO be happier at work (Start thinking, what do you want in Life Serene!)

Ok these shall be it. Working towards it..... JIA YOU!

Pampering Monday

So I got lazy today, skipped my gym session and went for a scalp treatment instead. Have been having itchy scalp for quite some time already and would love to have it taken care of and since there is a promotion this month, why not go for it? As usual, the greediness creep in and I signed up for another 2 sessions. I bought home 3 free shampoo which can last me for till next year I guess.

I just wanna vent about my boss! Just found out today that we actually have the same horoscope?! I do agree that he is as stubborn as me haha which explains why we clashed! The thing is I don't believe in hiding the problem, why cant we face it and resolve the matter! I don't agree with his actions but I always have to comply to things that I dont agree on. Is it a matter of my stubbornness which made me sway towards my own biased judgement and not accept his decision??

ok, what to do..just follow and shut up! I shall concentrate my efforts in doing my slides for the competition. I hope I can nail this one! Jia you!

hello~~ (just some random stuff)

Hello,

where have you been Serene? You did not log in for so long till you forgot your own blog address! It's time to pick up what you have left behind. You should start writing more often. Come on, write something so that you can improve your writing skill. Can't believe it is end October now, two more months to welcome 2015 and here I am, still the same old me. What have I achieved? Nothing much. So, people always say I talk to myself and I guess it's becoming a habit. I feel so at ease talking to myself and words simply flow through so smoothly. Perhaps, it's because I know no one is judging and who cares if I used a wrong word or bad grammar.

So, this shall be the channel. To vent, to celebrate happiness and somewhere I can jot down my emotions. Sometimes, you will be surprise when you read what you have written in the past. Ok, let's see how long I can last.

It's 10pm now, time for bed. I hope my pimples will disappear soon!

I have something for you

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hJRYgntVsos&feature=youtu.be

What's in for 2014

Since I only achieved 3/8 for my to do in 2013, some of my resolutions gonna repeat for 2014.

To Do:

(1) Take up a skill
(Learn korean / play ukulele / dance / skate)

(2) Complete at least a book every month
(12 books for a year)

(3) Out of Singapore
(Hopefully more than 3 times =D) After my Melbourne trip, I realized how beautiful the world is..Get out and see the world!!

(4) At least 2k in my bank account.
(Start a saving account, fixed asset)

(5) Keep fit! Sign up for fitness classes
(MAybe get a package at one of the fitness centre)

Not to do:

(1) Late for work and gatherings

(2) Cry more than 3 times a month

(3) Be messy, untidy and forgetful!
(in short be organized)

Hope this is not too ambitious! Serene you gonna do this in 2014.
A quote from Secret life of walter mitty (love this movie),

"Stop dreaming, start living"

Hey! It's 2014 - Reviewing my 2013 Resolution

Ok. Hello inactive blog! It's 2014!

Time to review what happened in 2013.

To do:

(1) Good performance appraisal! (Be the top few mt in Fp) =D

Did not achieve this

(2) Travel out of Singapore (Hopefully I can go for my grad trip)

Yes I did. Went to Malaysia (Malacca), Vietnam, Australia (Melbourne)

(3) Change my image (No more little girl look)

- Learn make up

I did this =D

- Wear make up (Light one will do)

I did this too!

- Perm my hair or dye it!

I permed my hair!

(4) Lose weight! (Although im not fat, I would love to have a slimmer thigh and butt, flat tummy)

hmmm..did not achieve this

(5) Regain my clear complexion!

Did not achieve too. How sad and my condition has worsen

- Eat more fruits and vegetables (combine with bf's resolution for me! =D)
- Drink at least 1.5 litre of water per day (starting from tomorrow! I will calculate)
- Avoid eating spicy or fried food (Stay away from Fast food!) (Starting tomorrow!)

(6) Save at least 1k and more. Shall let it be 2k (Double my bf benchmark) (Combine with bf's resolution)

Did not achieve too!

(7) Contemplating on whether I should get myself a nice branded bag =D

ok i got this. Vince Camuto Bag, cost me more than $200.

(8) Stay fit! (At least 2 exercise per month)

Did not achieve this.

Not to do

(1) Be late for work or other outings

Sadly to say...I'm still late

(2) Control my emotion and not cry easily (Combine with bf's resolution haha it must be less than 5 times)

Improving I guess..

(3) Make my room messy and dusty

Still making the effort to pack, once awhile

ok..not too bad I got 3/8 for to do! and 0/3 for not to do.

Nevertheless, 2013 has been a good year.

I applied for BTO with my bf! Yeah to the future.. =D

Thank you for loving me Joel.

Post Dated - Our cooking session on 25 May 2013

Bf and I love to eat Seafood Tom Yam pasta from Pastsamania so I suggested to Bf to try cooking it ourselves. It's a impromptu decision and off we went to Fairprice for our groceries shopping. All along I have been speculating that the chef at Pastamania uses tom yam spices paired with creamy mushroom base for the sauce. As such, I bought a bottle of tom yam paste that wasnt really authentic like how the actual taste should be like. Nevertheless, it turned out OK as we still can taste the "imitated" tom yam taste mixed with the mushroom alfredo sauce. It's a simple dish that doesnt required great effort. Attempted to fried onion, which didnt turn out as what we have expected. Initially, I was hoping it could be crispy and would help to enhance our pasta taste just like how other restaurant had done it, using fried onion as the garnish. I think I need more knowledge in frying food like the amount of oil to use or the perfect heat to fry something. ALthough the food did not taste like what we have at pastamania but the experience was more important. I enjoyed the process of preparation and the small argument we had along the way =) Thank you my dear for participating and going along with my impromptu suggestion.

Throw out the negativity

Never allow anyone to make you feel lousy about yourself.
Never allow anyone to look down on you.
No one can ruin my day without my permission.

Quote of the day:

"What others do to you doesnt cause you bad attitude, it is your own thought and emotions that you allow to be inside you, that causes all the negativity."

This song is dedicated tO all the nasty people out there!

Sometimes you just don't know how hurtful your words can be. How you promised you won't treat me coldly and yet you always did. How important am I to you when you always so easily ask me to leave you when I'm not happy with you. It's a month-versary that didn't end in a happy ending. Why can't things be easier and happier?

Resolution 2013

Done with reflecting 2012. Now time to set new resolution for 2013! No more study goals but practical life goals.

To do:

(1) Good performance appraisal! (Be the top few mt in Fp) =D

(2) Travel out of Singapore (Hopefully I can go for my grad trip)

(3) Change my image (No more little girl look)

- Learn make up
- Wear make up (Light one will do)
- Perm my hair or dye it!

(4) Lose weight! (Although im not fat, I would love to have a slimmer thigh and butt, flat tummy)

(5) Regain my clear complexion!

- Eat more fruits and vegetables (combine with bf's resolution for me! =D)
- Drink at least 1.5 litre of water per day (starting from tomorrow! I will calculate)
- Avoid eating spicy or fried food (Stay away from Fast food!) (Starting tomorrow!)

(6) Save at least 1k and more. Shall let it be 2k (Double my bf benchmark) (Combine with bf's resolution)

(7) Contemplating on whether I should get myself a nice branded bag =D

(8) Stay fit! (At least 2 exercise per month)

Not to do

(1) Be late for work or other outings

(2) Control my emotion and not cry easily (Combine with bf's resolution haha it must be less than 5 times)

(3) Make my room messy and dusty

Ok! I think my goals are pretty achievable =D

Lastly, thank you darling for buying the pearl ear rings for me on the first day of the year! Love ya! And hopefully lets forget about all the unhappiness in the past. Let's start the year fresh and i love you! WIshing you good health and happiness dear! Happy 2013 to you again!

Looking back - 2012

It's the time of the year, to do some self-reflection and reflect upon the past year. Am happy that I wrote down my 2012 resolution so I can do a comparison on what I have achieved!

Here's my 2012 resolution:

2012 will be a special year as....

- I will be graduating in April (May I graduate with Cum laude, with a GPA of 3.4 and above) (I did it)

- Hopefully..having a full time job that I love
(Not sure if my current job is my love, haha but i can say im liking it)

- Officially have an income to feed myself and start repaying my loans
(Ya, I taking a internship income and repaying my loans)

It's going to be a brand new start for me, officially stepping into the working world.

Resolution is a firm decision to do or not to do something. So here's my list:

- May baby and I still stay loving (I would work harder to be a good gf) (TO DO)
To be judge by bf

- More travel opportunities (would love to travel to Hong Kong or Bangkok or any place with beautiful sceneries) (TO GO)
(Didnt achieve this too :(, did not get to travel to anyway in 2012)

- Have a personal camera for me to capture memories (TO BUY)
(Oh ya, i bought my lumix gf3)

- Ensure that my first tution kid, Robyn would do well for her PSLE (TO DO)
(Didnt achieve this =( )

- To be less defensive (TO DO)
(TO let bf judge)

- Continue to study hard to maintain my cum laude position and achieve my first dean list in SMU (TO DO)
(I did it! My cum laude with my first dean list! Achieved in 2012)

Conclusion: Out of the 6 that are accountable, I achieved 4 haha ok 2/3of my resolution achieved! Not a bad thing.

I'm really proud of myself in 2012 because I really achieved my goals of graduating with a cum laude and be listed in the dean list of SMU, given my bad grammar and command of english.

Now some highlight of 2012:

- Discovered pinworms in my stomach!
- Finally!! I got a room to myself and a red sofa (my love)
- Installed shelving in my room so it looks neater (Hopefully)

Sometimes a hug from someone you loves the most eases everything. I'm grateful to have you.

the one you love most, hurts you the most. November hasnt been a good month although its a birthday month. I let feelings overwhelmed me, feeling of sadness. Your heart just feels so heavy and tiny little things can made me teared and cried. It's really everything, every emotion of unfairness, sadness are accumulated and are pushing their way out from your heart. Things havent been smooth, your family, relationship. How many times have I been crying this month? I feel weak, feel so tiny, I couldnt take charge of anything. Why am i always suppressing? why am i always enduring these stuff. Why cant others look at me differently? I just want to do things my way, enjoy some personal time doing things with no worries, no worries of meeting someone's else expectations. I dont feel free, i feel so tight up. What should i do? what must i do? i just want to be happy, live my days with no worries some freedom just be myself a little while, ignoring others expectations. what am i doing wrongly? what should i do to correct things?why do i find it so hard to breathe?

How do you make use of your time?

When I was still schooling, I hope for school to end as soon as possible. Now that I am out of school, I suddenly miss the days when you have no classes. The laughter you have while doing projects with your group mates. And even though time are tight, you will appreciate the short lunch break. Now that I'm no longer in school, sometimes i wish that I am still a student and tomorrow is a free day! So I can lay on my bed and sleep more. Always thought school is more stressful, why am I feeling more tired as compared to the times when I'm still studying? Or have I forgotten the tiredness? Recently, random people have been asking about my outbreak of pimples on my face and how I look so restless. What is happening to me? Why do I have so much pimples on my face as compared to when I was feeling stressful in school. I feel that I have not manage my time properly. What am I busy with and what makes me tired? Got to do up a time table soon to trace out how I manage my time. November please be kind to me. I hope my pimples will disappear nearer to my birthday. Let me have a clear complexion =)I have exactly 10 days left.

First day you are not in S'pore

First night without you in Singapore, I guess I am still able to cope with it still. I really have to keep myself occupied if not I'll really feel so alone without you. Today, time passed fast since my uni friends came to keep me company and I get to play mahjong. Although i lost 5 bucks but I enjoyed the company. Was really happy that you prepared the little surprises for me =D I'm looking forward to those special days so that I can reveal whats inside. i hope your bed is comfortable and you are having sweet dreams. Love you , and B, I hope you will enjoy yourself over at Korea. Counting down to hug you again.

13 June 2012

Our 9 years 4 months anniversary. The day you patiently taught me how to swim. The day I stupidly ate fast food after my attempt to swim. (instead of trying to lose calories, I added more. The day we laughed at our silly arguments while walking back home. The day I saw how handsome you are rinsing yourself under the shower at the swimming pool, an I laughed how much you seem to be like fimling an advertisement. The day you labeled me as di Yan gin da ren. :) I love you baby. I had a great day today.

=(

There are nights like this when you feel like crying your heart out. Times when you feel life is always unfair and cant seem to understand why things happen the way they are. Family, which I cherish and loves a lot. Why do I have to feel upset? Why do i have to feel I have no say in this family? Why makes me feel useless and why do I get the feeling that my family members looked down on me? When will they change their impression of me? I'm no longer the blur, careless, naive girl. I have grown up, at the age of 24 I still feel like a kid. Always being ordered around and dont feel respected or recognized. Being a graduate in a local university means nothing. Being awarded a dean list doesnt mean you will be complimented for your hard work. To them, I'm just a stingy sister who leech on my parents and slack at home. Why didnt it occur to them that I am already looking for a job, why cant they be more encouraging. I'm already feeling anxious and worried during this period of job sourcing but I dont get any encouraging words at all except that I'm a good-for-nothing person sitting at home doing nothing and spending my parents money. Graduation is also not a big event, no celebration, no graduation present. I thought you were very nice to top up my camera with no conditions and no obligations. This is not true, in exchange I need to face with your sarcasm. The camera don't belong to me, with the top up it doesnt belong to me entirely. Why mock at me? Why hurt me with nasty comments and laugh at things that hurts me real bad. The molest case wasnt something funny to me. I know its stupid for me to fall for the tricks but do you know its a hurtful incidents that affected me so badly? Why blame me on something that wasnt my fault? Why is it always me and me and me? Can anyone of you feels I care for this family? I love this family. I just hope for more love, more attention, more respect and more recognition. None of you know how it feels , I cant even cry out loud becoz I dont owe a room myself. I cant tell anyone coz no one will understand and it will just become another joke that you all will use to make fun of me.

Job progress thus far

Jotting down the latest updates: NTUC has called me down for assessment centre for the management trainee program! It's gonna be three hours long and it's at 9am. I hope the train don't break down that day and I hope I can go through this with ease =D. Not forgetting my Exxon networking event on this Friday. May everything be smooth and well. It's time to be prepared: Prepares for interview and to make an impression. It's getting more and more exciting and I still can't figure out where I will ultimately belong to.

Mummy day!

Yesterday was Mother's day. Beside having our usual family dinner together, we did something different this year. We opted for a picnic at East Coast Park. The weather was great. It was windy and not too sunny, which was perfect for me even though I slapped on many sunblock haha. We rented this real cute six-seaters 4 wheel bicycle! For your information, it costs $40 for an hour! So you are really paying for the experience. We brought cakes, soft drinks and our new game: Jenga with us. I took many photos but I dont know why blogspot kept giving me problems and I cant upload them =(. It was a simple affair. After our mini-picnic we went to Chinatown for XO fish soup noodle and lastly we head over to teochew meng for our family foot massage session. It was painful! I got some bruised on my feet after the massage and now I'm aching all over. Won't massage helps to relieve my body ache? Why it seems to make it worst.

Canele, where stressed = desserts

After B persuaded me to go into Abercrombie and Fitch we decided for a drink at Paragon. Speaking about Abercrombie, B wanted me to take picture with the topless hunk standing at the entrance. He insisted he don't mind at all but I'm too shy to do it. I think its really awkward to take picture with a stranger topless guy regardless how good or how handsome his figure is. Nevertheless, I was really impressed by the marketing efforts. It's one of a kind retail store with no window display. Walked into the building feels like walking into a nightclub with music blasting into your ears. Its dark inside with oil paintings and sculpture of naked man. The sales personnel and cashiers are all muscular men. They effectively created a consistent image of masculine, cool and luxury. One main thing I dont like was the overwhelming perfume smell that was simply too strong. The lightings are utilized well focusing and playing with the colors of their garments. The overall atmosphere enticed you to make purchase! B and me were resisting the temptation to buy! (I saw this nice tube dress that is white in color with blue and white stripe ribbons, I was imagining myself wearing it for my brother's ROM! Guess how much is it? It's $200++, way too much that I think it isnt worth the price<-- the power of branding) On a second thought, we decided to try out Macroons after walking out from Market place since B have not tried it after getting Macroons for my 22 birthday =). However, we ordered other desserts than just Macroons (We cant simply walked in to have just 2 macroons right?)

Look at the comfy seats!

We ordered this tea which supposedly helps in headaches and common flu but it tasted awful (Can you imagine drinking a salty tea no matter how much sugar you poured in?) And it comes with another cup and something netted which made both of us confused for a moment.

Him figuring out how to use before resorting to ask for help. I think we are quite dumb to do that haha after the waitress demonstrated how to use it.

We ordered this awesome cake that is super delicious which I will go for a second time!

Look at his expression which totally tells you how delicious it is, though he might looks a bit constipated haha! Just kidding =)

Can you see the creamy and juicy cream haha not sure if I had used the correct words to describe it.

My attempt to show how delicious the cake was

Finally, the Macroon! We only ordered one haha

where i got my inspiration for my blog title from

Cheers to my first high tea experience

I'm trying to do something stupid

Testing the effects of my camera

Look how clear the fishermen friends and cup are

End the post with me playing with my iphone =)