Sometimes a hug from someone you loves the most eases everything. I'm grateful to have you.

the one you love most, hurts you the most. November hasnt been a good month although its a birthday month. I let feelings overwhelmed me, feeling of sadness. Your heart just feels so heavy and tiny little things can made me teared and cried. It's really everything, every emotion of unfairness, sadness are accumulated and are pushing their way out from your heart. Things havent been smooth, your family, relationship. How many times have I been crying this month? I feel weak, feel so tiny, I couldnt take charge of anything. Why am i always suppressing? why am i always enduring these stuff. Why cant others look at me differently? I just want to do things my way, enjoy some personal time doing things with no worries, no worries of meeting someone's else expectations. I dont feel free, i feel so tight up. What should i do? what must i do? i just want to be happy, live my days with no worries some freedom just be myself a little while, ignoring others expectations. what am i doing wrongly? what should i do to correct things?why do i find it so hard to breathe?

How do you make use of your time?

When I was still schooling, I hope for school to end as soon as possible. Now that I am out of school, I suddenly miss the days when you have no classes. The laughter you have while doing projects with your group mates. And even though time are tight, you will appreciate the short lunch break. Now that I'm no longer in school, sometimes i wish that I am still a student and tomorrow is a free day! So I can lay on my bed and sleep more. Always thought school is more stressful, why am I feeling more tired as compared to the times when I'm still studying? Or have I forgotten the tiredness? Recently, random people have been asking about my outbreak of pimples on my face and how I look so restless. What is happening to me? Why do I have so much pimples on my face as compared to when I was feeling stressful in school. I feel that I have not manage my time properly. What am I busy with and what makes me tired? Got to do up a time table soon to trace out how I manage my time. November please be kind to me. I hope my pimples will disappear nearer to my birthday. Let me have a clear complexion =)I have exactly 10 days left.